Saddest day of my life.

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I mentioned a few posts back that my dog Benson had to be taken to the vet for a tumour on his back foot. Unfortunately it had continued to grow at a rapid rate and bursts open yesterday. It meant that he now was is pain and had the possibility of having it become infected and him developing septicaemia. So we had to make the hardest decision I have ever had to make and have him put down. I have had Benson for 14yrs and I could never imagine how much I would be greiving for him. It was just so incredibly hard taking him into the vets, knowing that he was never going to be coming home with us. He looked so happy to be in the car, and I felt just so awful.

I can't even find any photos of him to post here to show just how cute he was. My other dog, Mischka, who is 10yrs old is just looking for him everywhere. She has never known a time when Benson wasn't around. It is just so heartbreaking watching her look for him. Lockyer, the labrador puppy we got 7 months ago, doesn't understand I don't think, but he knows something is just not right.

I was to perform with St Aiden's choir tonight, but my heart just isn't in it. I have never had a close friend or relative pass away before so haver never experienced the pain of losing someone....it is not pleasant. I feel as if my heart is a heavy weight...I know it will get better with time, buit at the moment, I just wish he was back with us.

4 comments:

Dot said...

Dear Terri

I am so sad to hear that your special boy Benson had to be put down. I know you loved him very much and that you would have been the best doggy mama around.

I am sending you much love and comfort. You were very brave to make the right decision for him. And I know you will miss him. I feel sad for Mischa too as she wouldn't know what what was happening.

Wish there was something I could say to make you feel better.

Just know you are loved and that Benson is out of pain and at peace.

Take good care Terri, I will keep you close to my heart.

Dot xx

Lauren said...

Oh no Terri I my heat goes out to you & your family. BIG Hugs!!

Lauren x

niss said...

Terri, i know there is nothing i can say to make you fell any better, but as Dot said, just know you are loved and Benson is at rest. (((((biggest hugs for you))))
x x x x x x x

Sandra said...

Oh Terri, just popped in to say Hello and when read this I cried for you, the pain of losing a loved furry friend is sooooo hard, I hope it is easing now.